Warning: Another Infertility Post. Sigh.

I should blog more.  I am pretty terrible at updating it, but I love to spend hours at night laying in bed reading other peoples blogs, my husband thinks its weird.  "Whose blog are you on now?"  "I don't know, some girls I ended up on from so-and-so."  Why am I especially drawn to those blogs of people who are pregnant, updating about their journey through pregnancy and motherhood.  This is a common conversation in our house... "Jordan I'm sad again tonight."  "Why?"  "Because 'so-and-so' just announced her pregnancy on facebook AND her blog."  You're right, I'm doing this to myself.  The internet is really bad for my sanity - I am either reading about pregnant people, ha, or spending a ridiculous amount of time on fertility websites researching.  I could basically be a Reproductive Endocrinologist (fertility dr.) at this point I know so much... Then we would really be able to afford IVF!!

What's new in the Knight residence you ask?  Besides thinking about babies 24/7?  Hmmmmm..... nothing!

We received some pretty devastating news a couple of weeks ago.  I'll spare you from the details, but our only option at this point is In Vitro Fertilization.  What is that you ask?  Here is a "quick" run down for all of you that care to know...

- I give myself a mass amount of injections over the period of a month to make myself produce as many eggs as those little ovaries can handle

- Those eggs are surgically removed, put in a petri dish, and then injected with swimmers - Jordan's of course!

- Now we wait, usually 3 days, but ideally 5.

- After said amount of days, those little babies are stuffed right back inside of my Uterus, hopefully to burry in and implant nice and snug.

 Pretty self explanatory, this is the egg being injected with a swimmer, so fascinating!

This is a day 5 Embryo.  So neat, this little guy (or girl) is ready to be put back in!

Jordan thinks its creepy, making babies in a petri dish and sticking them back in.  He doesn't like the sound of it, or the sound of multiples, which is very high with IVF, but you gotta do what you gotta do right?  Our doctor is fairly hopeful that this will work, and we feel good about it too.  We don't know when exactly this is going to happen - IVF isn't the cheapest procedure out there, roughly the cost of a fairly nice new car. sigh.  I have never been more motivated about making money as I am now, and sometimes my thinking gets a little crazy.  I told Jordan that we could do like, ya know, a benefit concert or something - because we know SO many famous musical artists willing to come and perform at a concert for us...  Good thing I have such a good husband who keeps me grounded and thinking realistically.

I promise to try to not make all of my posts about Infertility.  I know there are a lot of people going through this, and most of them are not as open about their problem as I am.  So many of my dear friends are people I have become close to because of our IF.  I know how nice it is to know that YOU are not the only person going through this, because trust me, I have felt like that before.  Its nice to read other peoples stories, to connect, and to become friends with people who know exactly how you are feeling - so for all of you blog stalkers like me who are going through these unfair problems, don't be shy, lets be friends!

ps - If any of you know any famous people willing to come and do a benefit concert for us, shoot them my number ;)!

pps - Today is Lisa's birthday!  Lisa has been such a good friend to me, listens to me complain ALL of the time, and always cheers me up!  HAPPY BIRTHDAY cute girl, hope you're drinking loads of diet coke today, Love ya!!